Equilibrium
Music: Dashboard Confessional- Vindicated
This kind of songs should appeal to any teenager. Spirited, rebellious sounding, very catchy.
Been eating alot these days. The concept of the double meal is a highly unrecognizable and under-appreciated one; you probably need a highly differentiated mindset, not to mention appetite, to grasp it.
Fell sick consequently on tuesday night. Technically wednesday morning but I prefer seeing those times as nights. Got extremely feverish and delirious, waves of nausea and that dullish pain in my tummy kept me alive and kicking till 5.
Took leave on thursday even though I felt fine by then. Desperately wanted a day or two off to re-organize my thoughts, re-orientate myself, retrieve myself. That concept, btw, isnt a new one. It frequently manifests itself in the variious forms of skipping (very occasionally) lessons, music-listening, jogs and swims, coffee, and many other escapist pleasures.
When thursdays a holiday theres always a tendency to convert friday into a holiday too. A 4-day break at the weekend is always very tempting, but I opted with much displeasure to head out to sch on friday. Didnt want my weekend to be littered with too much work.
04A6 was the best-performing class in the midyear examinations, in the arts faculty and the whole school if Im not wrong. It's almost as if we're making up for the lack of results in some other areas.
As for my results...Well to make it sound nice I passed everything, chinese and gp included. To elaborate would be to make it sound not-so-nice. Pretty glad my gp and economics made it to the 99th and 92th percentile respectively though, but we want to be careful when it comes to the legitimacy of the basis of comparison.
Hah, think my tutor commented to my parents that Im very quiet in class.
I realised Im pretty much a flirt at times. I dont understand myself. Find it so much easier getting along with people, males or females, outside. And those thrusts dont ever get deep, but they do get very entertaining. Can happen anywhere, from printing stuffs to a meal with friends of my friends, as long as my mood clicks with theirs things flow. In fact I think I know more 'friends of friends' than 'friends', and if thats a natural structure, I enjoy myself more in the company of the former. Um, yes, as in enjoy my self. The result is seeing alot of vaguely familiar faces everywhere but dont know how I got to know them, providing for an equally vague, mystical feeling sustaining itself within me.
We want to be careful with that word 'flirt' though. It has two meanings but teenagers often think of one. With me it just means light, playful talk between strangers or friends. Alternatively, light, smooth talk. I flirt as much with males as with females--and theres nothing wrong or laughable about that, dont be so narrow-minded.
In minute news, my aggregrate score against my maths tutor in chess just got to 2-2, after a little 1 hour match on friday. Was initially 2-1 to me, but I won those first two games against him only because he hadnt been playing chess for 3 years. He won the third round and subsequently the fourth with astounding beauty. (A former tournament player, he). Oh, all the logic...could almost touch it in the air.
The tripartite relationship of a undergraduate, a polytechnic student, and a junior college student met up for a jog and dinner as usual this friday. Jog was put off for some reasons. Quite a pity because I still remember the times Joel and I would run those 4.8 runs, but theres still many fridays more. Joel said he could eat a cow when we met. Generally speaking he doesnt eat as much as JJ and me--especially when it comes the buffets. But when he says he's hungry...whoa. JJ ate a bowl of mee pok and a japanese set meal. I got myself a chicken chop set and a bowl of laksa. Joel gets the honourable mention though. He got himself a bowl of mee siam, a bowl of dumpling soup, a japanese set meal, and desert. The real stuffs come in buffets though, think all of us !@#$%^&*KEEKAABOOOOM#!@$!#@~!#%
Well in case you're wondering about the length of this entry, its because equilibrium's achieved, or at least thats what I would say. This is the state that would perpetuate throughout the forseeable future. Relationships within class would remain as it is, state of flirting would remain, state of myself would stagnate, occasional dinners and high tea in coffeeshops would be constants in any week. There would be of course the occasional outings, the occasional spice events, but those are in themselves constants in any teenager's life. Equilibrium, might be good might be bad, might remain untouched, might be disrupted, and Im not sure if thats undesirable.
This kind of songs should appeal to any teenager. Spirited, rebellious sounding, very catchy.
Been eating alot these days. The concept of the double meal is a highly unrecognizable and under-appreciated one; you probably need a highly differentiated mindset, not to mention appetite, to grasp it.
Fell sick consequently on tuesday night. Technically wednesday morning but I prefer seeing those times as nights. Got extremely feverish and delirious, waves of nausea and that dullish pain in my tummy kept me alive and kicking till 5.
Took leave on thursday even though I felt fine by then. Desperately wanted a day or two off to re-organize my thoughts, re-orientate myself, retrieve myself. That concept, btw, isnt a new one. It frequently manifests itself in the variious forms of skipping (very occasionally) lessons, music-listening, jogs and swims, coffee, and many other escapist pleasures.
When thursdays a holiday theres always a tendency to convert friday into a holiday too. A 4-day break at the weekend is always very tempting, but I opted with much displeasure to head out to sch on friday. Didnt want my weekend to be littered with too much work.
04A6 was the best-performing class in the midyear examinations, in the arts faculty and the whole school if Im not wrong. It's almost as if we're making up for the lack of results in some other areas.
As for my results...Well to make it sound nice I passed everything, chinese and gp included. To elaborate would be to make it sound not-so-nice. Pretty glad my gp and economics made it to the 99th and 92th percentile respectively though, but we want to be careful when it comes to the legitimacy of the basis of comparison.
Hah, think my tutor commented to my parents that Im very quiet in class.
I realised Im pretty much a flirt at times. I dont understand myself. Find it so much easier getting along with people, males or females, outside. And those thrusts dont ever get deep, but they do get very entertaining. Can happen anywhere, from printing stuffs to a meal with friends of my friends, as long as my mood clicks with theirs things flow. In fact I think I know more 'friends of friends' than 'friends', and if thats a natural structure, I enjoy myself more in the company of the former. Um, yes, as in enjoy my self. The result is seeing alot of vaguely familiar faces everywhere but dont know how I got to know them, providing for an equally vague, mystical feeling sustaining itself within me.
We want to be careful with that word 'flirt' though. It has two meanings but teenagers often think of one. With me it just means light, playful talk between strangers or friends. Alternatively, light, smooth talk. I flirt as much with males as with females--and theres nothing wrong or laughable about that, dont be so narrow-minded.
In minute news, my aggregrate score against my maths tutor in chess just got to 2-2, after a little 1 hour match on friday. Was initially 2-1 to me, but I won those first two games against him only because he hadnt been playing chess for 3 years. He won the third round and subsequently the fourth with astounding beauty. (A former tournament player, he). Oh, all the logic...could almost touch it in the air.
The tripartite relationship of a undergraduate, a polytechnic student, and a junior college student met up for a jog and dinner as usual this friday. Jog was put off for some reasons. Quite a pity because I still remember the times Joel and I would run those 4.8 runs, but theres still many fridays more. Joel said he could eat a cow when we met. Generally speaking he doesnt eat as much as JJ and me--especially when it comes the buffets. But when he says he's hungry...whoa. JJ ate a bowl of mee pok and a japanese set meal. I got myself a chicken chop set and a bowl of laksa. Joel gets the honourable mention though. He got himself a bowl of mee siam, a bowl of dumpling soup, a japanese set meal, and desert. The real stuffs come in buffets though, think all of us !@#$%^&*KEEKAABOOOOM#!@$!#@~!#%
Well in case you're wondering about the length of this entry, its because equilibrium's achieved, or at least thats what I would say. This is the state that would perpetuate throughout the forseeable future. Relationships within class would remain as it is, state of flirting would remain, state of myself would stagnate, occasional dinners and high tea in coffeeshops would be constants in any week. There would be of course the occasional outings, the occasional spice events, but those are in themselves constants in any teenager's life. Equilibrium, might be good might be bad, might remain untouched, might be disrupted, and Im not sure if thats undesirable.
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Oh yes forgot to add. This state of equilibrium runs on the free market model of sleep. Again, another unrecognizable and under-appreciated concept.
Essentially, I sleep whenever my body demands sleep, and when it doesnt I dont supply it. Dont we all run on that model? No. This is something different. The principle translates into relatively bizarre sleeping times. Like 8PM to 12 midnight, and then from 4AM to 6AM. Or 5PM to 11, and then all the way through. Nights spent like this means a very lethargic me the following day. But that has little consequence because firstly, my college life doesnt exactly demand a vibrant me. Secondly, you just get used to it, and somehow can function as you normally would with more standard sleeping hours.
This isnt the same as rotating your "sleeping circle", pushing evenings into nights and night into day. There are cases where I sleep 4 hours/2 hours (evening/morning) and get so tired the following day I sleep at 8, 9PM, all the way till 3, 4 AM. Its really a free system, with little or no govt interference in the form of coffee and clocks and homework. In fact its nicer doing hw at 4AM than at 8PM.
There are pros and cons of course. Undisrupted sleeping rhythms and their accompanying health benefits are foreign to me--economies of scale of bulk sleep, if you like. But I do have better allocative efficiency. My body sleeps the number of hours it feels it needs to replenish energy levels, no more and no less, regardless of the contexts of night and day. I cant attain maximum efficiency though, because I cant possibly sleep in school if I feel tired. But that deficiency is made up for the pleasures of staying up in the night, the late night, and actually that pretty much outweighs everything else.
Hello Michelle! Nice to hear you do that sleep thing too, its a rather pleasurable model.
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