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Music: Oasis - Let There Be Love
Book: Matt Ridley - The Agile Gene
Maybe I was too quick in dismissing Dont Believe the Truth.
We're approaching that part of the holidays where we start marvelling at how time just flew past us, that time of the month where we wonder and reflect on what we've done over the past few weeks.
I havent done much work. But this time round I dont feel guilty because I dont see hope or motivation anywhere around me. I cant bring myself to care enough. Many reasons, many excuses: a 5-day camp, an irritating cough that got so bad it disrupted my sleep at times, some dunnowhat thing that invaded my body and caused my fingers and legs to itch and the skin to peel off, dinners, books, work fatigue, the computer, movies, X&Y.
I pretty much doubt the situation would be improved by much if any of these circumstances were mitigated because of the inconsequential nature of the exam. I never could artificially motivate myself; motivational forces for me come paradoxically from the outside. I mean, what do I stand to gain by doing well now? Honour roll position? $60 book voucher? Less work to do for the prelims and ultimately the A levels? The very thought of all these (and some others) sickens me.
That being said I am actually still satisfying my schedule. 5 days per subject, econs and literature done. The qualifier to be made here though is that they were done in a half-hearted mood; I dont know how much one could absorb as such consequently. The one true driving force I have is the expectations of my tutors. I did it once, I did it a few times, if I fail now it would just mean I am a consistent fluke-case who just saw the end of his luck. I fear disapointing others and I dont know why.
I've got many, many things to write on; I havent been idle all this while, I've been catching up with my reading. The book you see up there is actually just the book that is seeing the most influence on my life right now (as it is with the music), I normally juggle 3 books at any one period. Many plans for the future too that Ive got to write down here so as to consolidate my commitment toward them. I guess they'll just have to wait.
On a more uplifting note a plan to go overseas this coming december has been agreeed upon me and another person who has the similar need to take a break from life. A coalition of sorts could be formed; females who can lead people are welcome too because males (well, at least the ones I know) cant lead for nuts. However if you're the kind of female who spends more than 7.47 mins shopping for an item that is masculinely undesirable or socially unnecessary (like trinkets), or an item that triggers the release of progesterone in any person for any period of time (mainly soft toys), or any item that can be remotely associated with animal skin/fur, then no you're not welcome.
As an afterthought females who tend to speak more than 4 sentences (which do not stimulate much group interest) at a go are not welcome too. Right so that means no females on this trip. Which means getting lost. But at least getting lost has its fun side.
Book: Matt Ridley - The Agile Gene
Maybe I was too quick in dismissing Dont Believe the Truth.
We're approaching that part of the holidays where we start marvelling at how time just flew past us, that time of the month where we wonder and reflect on what we've done over the past few weeks.
I havent done much work. But this time round I dont feel guilty because I dont see hope or motivation anywhere around me. I cant bring myself to care enough. Many reasons, many excuses: a 5-day camp, an irritating cough that got so bad it disrupted my sleep at times, some dunnowhat thing that invaded my body and caused my fingers and legs to itch and the skin to peel off, dinners, books, work fatigue, the computer, movies, X&Y.
I pretty much doubt the situation would be improved by much if any of these circumstances were mitigated because of the inconsequential nature of the exam. I never could artificially motivate myself; motivational forces for me come paradoxically from the outside. I mean, what do I stand to gain by doing well now? Honour roll position? $60 book voucher? Less work to do for the prelims and ultimately the A levels? The very thought of all these (and some others) sickens me.
That being said I am actually still satisfying my schedule. 5 days per subject, econs and literature done. The qualifier to be made here though is that they were done in a half-hearted mood; I dont know how much one could absorb as such consequently. The one true driving force I have is the expectations of my tutors. I did it once, I did it a few times, if I fail now it would just mean I am a consistent fluke-case who just saw the end of his luck. I fear disapointing others and I dont know why.
I've got many, many things to write on; I havent been idle all this while, I've been catching up with my reading. The book you see up there is actually just the book that is seeing the most influence on my life right now (as it is with the music), I normally juggle 3 books at any one period. Many plans for the future too that Ive got to write down here so as to consolidate my commitment toward them. I guess they'll just have to wait.
On a more uplifting note a plan to go overseas this coming december has been agreeed upon me and another person who has the similar need to take a break from life. A coalition of sorts could be formed; females who can lead people are welcome too because males (well, at least the ones I know) cant lead for nuts. However if you're the kind of female who spends more than 7.47 mins shopping for an item that is masculinely undesirable or socially unnecessary (like trinkets), or an item that triggers the release of progesterone in any person for any period of time (mainly soft toys), or any item that can be remotely associated with animal skin/fur, then no you're not welcome.
As an afterthought females who tend to speak more than 4 sentences (which do not stimulate much group interest) at a go are not welcome too. Right so that means no females on this trip. Which means getting lost. But at least getting lost has its fun side.
5 Comments:
The last paragraph is such an unfair stereotype on females! Haha...
If it's helpful, I'm stuck in the can't-study-for-nuts mood too. I think most people are going through this frustration, from what I heard. I guess we just have to try to make it through this exam and see how things go. Maybe it (the exam) will provide inspiration to really work for the prelims... bah that sounds uninspiring. Nevermind. Ignore me.
Hey guys grunt monosyllabic replies that do not stimulate any group interest at all. Then there are also guys who speak at least 5 sentences at one go, all with the self-interest of showing off his muscles or intellect. Haha. See? Sterotype. Tsk. At least with 4 self unrelated passing sentences, there are more chances of interests being lit up. But this in itself would be a sterotype since you can't dismiss bimbos. Faith.
7.47 minutes are relatively short from experience.
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Somehow I wish to be doing something adventurous in after A levels. Maybe climb a mountain or go on a cycling tour to Malaysia or something.
Ok.
Hah.
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Thinking of somewhere further though, like taiwan or hong kong.
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